Siiiiiigh.
Thought I wouldn’t have to write this post but here we are!
I’m angry.
Mad.
Tired.
Exhausted.
Not myself.
I’m not living my best life.
Sometimes I wonder if I need to sign up for therapy.
Damn, this is getting a bit too real. Lol.
It’s crazy ‘cause I just had a great few days catching up with my bestie who helped me get grounded and understand what I want to do for the rest of the year (thanks @thesoulfulreturn!)
But maybe that’s the reason why I’m able to finally sit down and share my thoughts.
Okay, let’s GO.
I’m angry that I always have to do the morning duties as a mum.
Yes, I’m a solopreneur so my schedule is more “flexible” (unlike my partner who works in his corporate 9-5).
But hey, I’m trying to build a business too so I think it’s fair to say I need rest just like the rest of the humans functioning out there, ehhhh?
I’m not here to rant (but hello, here I am!).
I know, I know!
My partner is a great dad - he plays with the baby, is the main financial provider (at the moment), and is waaay more patient when it comes to putting the overtired baby to sleep.
But he’s not the one waking up when the baby decides to wake up anywhere from 12am to 9am. 🥲
Luckily my baby has been sleeping through the night (YAY!). I mean it only took like 19 months but cool, cool, cool… I’ll take it!!!
But sometimes I am just… DRAINED (even if he is just waking up at like 7am!).
I will RARELY ask my partner to take care of the baby in the mornings cause I know he’s a super grumpy person when he doesn’t get his sleep.
But YO → I’m the same when I don’t get enough sleep.
I’m just really good at hiding it when I’m with the baby because I don’t want any of that negative energy around him.
Anyway, I tried telling my partner about how I was feeling this morning and because both of us were a bit frustrated with each other, we didn’t really have a productive chat and had to rush out the door to the next weekend activity.
And now I’m currently writing this while he drives us to go visit his parents.
So… hiya from the passenger seat!
I’ve been typing for almost half an hour without chatting with him.
Lol. I told him I had to work.
But little does he know, I’m writing this lovely post about him.
Feels like a bit of a childish silent treatment.
But WOOOO, that’s life for ya.
Anyway, I don’t know how useful this newsletter is.
It’s actually pretty depressing so maybe I’ll share my sad thoughts somewhere else instead of this newsletter. Lol.
Okay, signing off now, BYE!
xoxo, knd.
P.S. - It’s been a couple of hours since I wrote the above and I’m laughing at it because yeees, although I felt all of those angry emotions. I’m cool now. LOL. We had a nice catchup with his parents and now the baby is running around the house having the time of his life. He is in dire need of a nap so it’s time for us to head home!!
But also, I noticed my partner is much nicer to me. LOOOL. Bringing in the groceries, grabbing the baby’s backpack when it looked heavy on me, etc. etc. Blah blah blah, let’s just say…. yes, we have mini disputes but we overcome them pretty quickly lol
P.P.S. - It’s been 1.5 months since I wrote my last post, so I’m SOOO HAPPY I finally have the time to sit down and share something today. Thank you for reading!! 🙂